I known I have not been updating my secret diary for some time… I would like to say sorry to all of you for going MIA during for the past year. The past year was a roller coaster ride emotionally. I found what I thought was true love only to lose it eventually…
If you will still lend me your heart and spare me a bit of your love please read on.
It was a hot Sunday afternoon in late 2016, I decided to go to AMK Hub for lunch and enjoy some much needed aircon. It was a hot day so I decided to go light on the clothing, I wore a lime green tank top with a tight pair of black cotton shorts. Did not want to bring any bag so I held my wallet in hand stuff my hand phone in my back pocket.
After lunch I decided to go to the ladies. On my way there I heard crying coming from the direction of the ladies, I saw a man in his mid thirty carrying his crying daughter.
The man was 1.7m medium build in his thirties with neatly combed side parting hair. He was of slightly above average look and bespectacled. He was wearing his green NS* singlet with a pair of light grey bermudas complete with a pair of blue crocs. Not very fashionable I would say.
His daughter is another matter altogether. The young toddler looks to be between 2 to 3 years old. She was wearing a baby pink t shirt with a denim jacket and hot pink skirt complete with cute little pink glossy boots. Even though she was crying loudly she still look very cute to me. She has a very cute face with baby chubby cheek that I so want to pinch. Last of all she was sporting a bob hair just like me (^~^)
They were standing outside the handicap toilet, I have no idea what was the issue with the 2 of them. I proceed to the ladies to do my ladies business. When I came out of the ladies they were still outside the handicap toilet. The daughter was still crying loudly. There was already a group of auntie gathering around to see what the commotion was all about. I was curious and so stayed around a bit to see how the situation will develop. The father was trying hard to console his daughter and I overhead him saying, “wait… just wait a short while.” After a few minute I could no longer stand watching the young baby girl continue to crying.
I pluck up my courage to approach the father and daughter pair and spoke to the man.
Me: Hi, my name is Shirley. May I know what is happening and if I can be of any help?
Bespectacled guy: my daughter wants to use the toilet but it is currently occupied.
He gesture to the handicap toilet.
Me: you can bring him to gents? She is a kid should be okay.
Bespectacled guy: she is shy and I don’t want her to see their… you know what…
Me: oh I see… In that case why don’t I bring her to the ladies?
Bespectacled guy: really? That’s great! Joey, go with jiejie to toilet okay? She will bring you in.
Me: *I stretch out my hand to lead the baby girl to the ladies* come, Joey, Jiejie bring you to toilet okay?
Bespectacled guy: Joey, be a good girl and go with jiejie.
Joey stop stop crying to look at me with her big round eyes. She reluctantly stretch out her hand for me to hold. Keeping to the pace of her small foot step I brought Joey to the ladies. I used to take care of my younger cousin when they stayed over at our place so I had no problem taking care of Joey. Joey did her business quickly and I carried her to reach the basin to wash her hand, we left the ladies after drying her hand.
When we saw her father again Joey walked briskly to approach her father. Joey did not let go of my hand even as we walk towards her father. Upon reaching her father I tried to hand Joey to her father but she would not let go of my hand. Her father and I exchange a confuse look. Joey’s father squat down to speak to her while ruffling her hair. Joey mumbled something inaudible to her father with her back facing me.
I looked at her father and gave him a what is it? look with my raised nicely trimmed eyebrow.
Joey’s father: she said thank you.
I place my hand on Joey’s shoulder to gently nudge her to turn around to face me. Joey tried to burrow her face into her father’s chest to avoid me but her father held her in place to prevent her from doing so. We manage to turn Joey around to face me and I spoke softly, “Joeyyy… what did you just say?”
Joey: … th…you…
Joey’s father: Joey you must speak loud enough for people to hear you.
Me: I think it’s okay don’t force her la… *I patted Joey on the top of her head lightly* anyway my task here is done so I will be on my way.
I turn to walk away while occasionally turning around to steal glance at Joey who eventually left the safety of her father’s chest to look at me leaving with her cute puppy eye.
Life went back to mundane normality until a fateful rainy day.
It was about 1 month since I last saw Joey and her father. I was on my way out to meet a friend Caleb for a date, he was a potential boyfriend material introduced by a mutual friend. For the date I wore a 1 piece yellow dress with flowery imagery, the front of the dress covers me up decently showing minimum skin at my chest. It was a dress with a slightly flared skirt that ends just slightly below my knee. The magic of the dress is due to the fact that it was a bareback dress. The opening stops about an inch below where my bra strap should be. Not one to spoil the dress I wore only a pair of nu bra that day.
It was a cold evening, the sun has almost set. I was already 15 minutes late even before I started my journey. I whipped out my phone from my Burberry handbag and fired up Grab. 3 minutes later my ride arrived at the sheltered pick up point at my block. I entered the vehicle and sat on the front passenger seat. It was the seat that I always took if I am alone because I understand that most private hire drivers prefer not to be seen as chauffeur ferrying people around.
To my surprise the driver was Joey’s father. Immediately we burst into a spontaneous loud “HELLO!!!” in unison. Both of us found it an incredible coincidence to have met a second time under such circumstances. We began chit chat during the journey and I found out that his name was Xing. He was in his mid thirties. Joey was 3 years old, she was being babysat at his mom’s place so Xing had free time to earn some extra buck that night. Feeling curious about his wife, Joey’s mom I blurted out my question.
Me: So… you don’t have to accompany your wife?
Xing: we are divorced…
Me: sorry for asking.
Xing: it’s okay.
We did not chat much after my rude question. Feeling cold and shivering I began hugging my handbag tightly. Xing notice me fidgeting around in my seat and asked if the air con was too cold. I shifted my body a little to show Xing my bareback to justify why I was feeling cold. Xing’s eyes widen and I could see that he was pleased with what he was seeing. Xing quickly averted his gaze and increased the aircon temperature for me. Due to the heavy rain outside I was still feeling cold. When we reached the next traffic light Xing release his seat belt to remove his hoodie and gave it to me as a jacket to keep me warm. I could faintly smell Xing on his hoodie, it was not an unpleasant smell, I liked it. Maybe it was due to the warmth from his hoodie our conversation began to warm up too and we started to talk about our work, our hobby and eventually found out that we lived nearby in Ang Moh Kio which was why I was assigned to him when I used Grab. Xing was a very humorous guy who made a lot of quirky joke during the journey. All the laughing warmed my heart and left me in a much more chirpy mode than when I left for the date earlier that day.
When we reached my destination in town I gave Xing back his hoodie. Before I left, Xing offered to come back and fetch me back home after my date. Xing meant for the offer as gratitude for my help previously. I politely decline as I had expected Caleb to send me back after our date but still took down Xing’s number. Xing was gentleman enough to exit the vehicle and open the car door for me so that I did not have to struggle getting down the vehicle in my dress and high heels.
I met Caleb for dinner at a restaurant. He praised me for I looking good in my dress and I thanked him for his compliment. Caleb was not to shabbily dressed himself, he was wearing a white shirt with a pair of skinny jeans complete with a pair of light brown leather shoes. 6.5/10 for fashion sense.
Thorough out the dinner Caleb kept talking almost non-stop. I knew that he was trying to get the conversation going but the feeling I got was not one of pleasant humour but more like he was trying too hard to impress. I tried my best to laugh at his joke but was not able to do much beyond squeezing my facial muscle together to produce a fake smile and my laughter that were way off timing. Caleb seemed to believe that I was genuinely impressed with his jokes. I was not sure if it was a habit or Caleb was over enthusiastic to impress but he often spoke with his mouth full of food. 3/10 for charming personality.
After the dinner we went to collect the movie tickets at Golden Village. Caleb deliberately took only a single straw for a cup of drink that we were suppose to share. When I looked at him with questioning eye he smiled sheepishly, I took a sip before he had the chance to and did not drink from the straw again.
Settling down in our seat Caleb placed the drink on his side of the chair. I was wondering why he did not placed it in between us as it would have been easier to share the drink that way. I found out shortly before the movie began. The lights were dimming in preparation for the movie to be shown Caleb shifted up the seat handle separating our seats to make it a couple seat. I immediately placed my handbag between us to prevent him from closing in on me. I am not a woman to shy away from physical intimacy with my partner, conversely I enjoy skinship. BUT there needs to be chemistry, it should not be something that you attempt to sneak in just when the lights were dimming. Respect for female 4/10.
Thorough out the movie Caleb kept trying to move closer to me, occasionally he even attempt to hold my hand. In reaction I moved away from him. Caleb was in fact pushing me towards the guy on my left with his constant invasion of my personal space. I barely remembered what the movie was about as I had to spend all my effort avoiding contact with Caleb.
After the movie Caleb offered to send me back but I politely decline as I could not bear to be around him any longer. It was at that moment I remembered Xing’s offer. I informed Caleb that I will be using Grab to get a ride back. I called Xing and told him that if it was not too much of a trouble I would like to engage his service to drive me back. Caleb accompanied me to wait for Xing to arrive.
When Xing arrived he once again exit his vehicle to open the car door for me while Caleb merely stood there waving his hand to say goodbye. I gesture for Caleb to come near the car and thank him for the date, to my shock he was leaning in for a kiss. I dart back into the safety of the car leaving him stranded in awkwardnes.
During the journey back Xing asked me how was the date and I went into full complain mode and told him all my unhappiness with how the date went. Most man I know will take advantage of such situation to boast how much better they could have done if they had been my date. Xing was different, he suggested that maybe Caleb was too nervous due to his inexperience and his nervousness would have been due to his eagerness to please me. His smile was full of manly charm when he analyst the details of the date. By that point in time I had no interest in the motive of Caleb’s action. I was totally smitten by the gentlemanly charm that Xing was exuding. I was hoping his GPS will fail so that we can spend more time together.
When we finally reach my place I merely sat still in my seat as Xing opened the door for me. Xing offered to accompany me up to my unit as he was worried for my safety if I were to go up on my own. When we reach my unit I so wanted to invite him in for ‘coffee’ but I had to remain compose, I did not want him to feel that I was an easy woman.
I bid Xing goodbye and he left only after I had locked the metal gate. I took a quick shower and lay on my bed fiddling with my phone while waiting for my hair to dry.
Caleb: yo babe, I hope you have reached home safely.
Me: yep, reached home already. Thanks for everything today.
Caleb: you free tomorrow?
Me: sorry but I have an appointment tomorrow night.(I don’t have one)
Caleb: how about afternoon?
Me: meeting my mom for lunch.(this is real)
Caleb: after that?
Me: shopping with her. (More excuse)
Caleb: wow to you sure have busy schedule.
Me: I’m in high demand :p
Caleb: I really look forward to our next date.
Caleb: how did I perform tonight?
Me: very gentlemanly I enjoy the date.
Caleb: me too! I really enjoy your company. Love your perfume too. You smell so nice!
Caleb: you very tired already? Want to sleep?
Me: yes very sleepy. (Bored actually)
Caleb: ok let’s sleep together. I am going to sleep too. Nite nite.
(I did not want to reply)
Xing: Hi, I hope you don’t mind me saving your number without your permission. You asleep?
Me: I don’t mind you saving my number, wide awake 🙂 Thanks for the ride today.
Xing: mind if we chat a while?
Me: don’t mind :p
Xing: sorry for being a kaypo but I feel that you should really give your date a chance. I had the same problem when I was initially dating. Had you been my first date I would be as nervous as him.
Me: aiya… he trying too hard, very irritating loh. By the way why will you be nervous leh?
Xing: because you are beautiful?
Me: kekeke you later your wife jealous ah.
Xing: there is no wife…
Me: oops… I’m sorry.
Xing: let’s talk some other day. It was nice chatting with you.
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